Since November

uh, spoilers in this comment. Sorry if it doesn't make much sense either, just trying to get my thoughts out. 

Damn, I watched your video on this and then came to play it when I had the time and I really liked it. Of course the absolutely fantastic art and fitting music really put in work to help set the atmosphere and induce the vibes, the writing is where the meat is. I liked all of these characters and at least somewhat invested in them (Charlie a little less so than the others), which is impressive for such a short time spent with them. 

I completed all endings in a couple hours (I took longer than others it seems) and I really enjoyed all of them. I got Nomi's ending first, then Edgar's, then Val's, then Charlie's. I liked how after every ending I was left with a different feeling. I also appreciate how the different characters all have a unique outlook and explore a theoretical reaction to an apocalypse in a different way-and I can understand and empathize with all of them. I mean, I get thats kinda the whole point of the game but I'm mentioning it all the same. 

Big spoilers from here since I'm just describing the endings and how they made me feel. 

Nomi's was a nice conversation about life and how we each felt about it. I liked how Jack didn't just completely nod along with Nomi and actually provided some pushback with his own outlook. I can see the thought process behind either but I think I have to agree with Jack in the end. Life is beautiful. I'm not sure I fully understand her "I want you to forget me" line but that could very easily be me missing something. I know every ending is abrupt (and I like that) but I think this is the best first ending as its more relaxed and almost comedic. The timing left me going "ahh I liked that. That's cute" rather than confused or upset. 

Edgar's hit me like a punch to the gut. I was not expecting their request. I mean, when they said they'd need me it crossed my mind but it was still like "holy shit" when they actually asked. I like that we actually did it to.. mostly for the sake of dramatics but don't think I'm saying that as a bad thing. I definitely see how the anxiety of knowing it could happen at any time without warning would be suffocating and wanting to see it and know its happening and feel it so badly you would do it yourself. If the game gave me a choice in the matter I still would have done it. If I was actually put in this scenario however I think it would piss me off. If you really think about it, it is incredibly selfish to ask your friend to kill you. If we're truly friends than you should know how much that would hurt me to do that. How could you ask me to do that? Nothings stopping them from jumping off a building. However I think that connects to their 'big line' where, at least the way I see it, is preemptively asking Jack to forgive them for what they're about to ask of him. STILL I have to stress I'm not criticizing the story or Edgar, I think it progressed in the most interesting way it just got me thinking. This ending left me sitting in my chair with my mouth agape for a about a minute. Just "holy shit.."  as I looked down at his body. The art and music in the section are particularly great and really enhance the ending. 

Val's probably hit the closest to home. He's obviously feeling the sense of a life lost. Yearning for a connection, for a future that was once conceivable and now, suddenly, is not must be hard. I also liked Jack's side of the conversation in this one. A few of his lines basically described thoughts and feelings I've had myself word for word and I just.. yeah. I feel like their ending is the.. is happiest the right word? They may not have 'loved' each other or even had an interaction like this without the whole world ending but they did like each other so they were able to form a connection. They were able to have something, even if it was pretend, for just a little before they were gone and I think that's sweet in a way. They went out on a high note I guess! 

I didn't like Charlie but I thiiiiink that might be the point of an asshole character. Not to say I didn't like his inclusion, I just didn't like him. I do, however, understand the feeling of a life wasted and how enticing just going crazy for a bit before the end may seem. Like, yeah, I definitely get being angry and wanting to smash shit! I was wondering how his ending was going to go but having him go all Fight Club on us was fitting for his character. All that shit talk and he still lost, fucker. I was surprised that Jack actually killed him though. I mean, makes sense he was almost certainly going to kill us if we hadn't gotten the upperhand but I didn't go into this game expecting half of the endings to be with us killing someone. I think I connected the least with this ending but it's probably clear why. I simply wasn't as interested in the character as the others and there's less emotional attachment in the story itself between these characters. I still liked it though. 

I don't have much to say about Jack himself which I feel is typical for a pov character but I still liked him. I liked the moments where he shared his views on things in relation to the other characters and like I said before what he was talking about in Val's ending really hit home. 

I feel like there's more to say but nothing is really coming to mind and I gotta get to bed anyway so, good game! I really enjoyed it!